It has taken years to learn why I am the way I am. The behaviours, the fears, the sensory issues.
I am still discovering ways in which Tourette and OCD influences my behaviour and affects my life.
For that reason I have created three sections for my website. These are:
My earliest memories were biting the carpet. Gritting my teeth until it hurt. Saying the same words and phrases over and over again.
This blog goes into the sensory urges I have to carry out certain movements and sounds. There are no thoughts behind the actions, think of it like scratching an itch.
I would start the chapter of a book again if I made a mistake. The same with gaming or watching a movie.
One intrusive thought could ruin an entire holiday. I have since learned that this is mental contamination.
OCD consists of the intrusive thoughts and fears, and the behaviours I carry out to try to escape them.